Motivation

I was swimming and then I saw something on the bottom of the pool. So I swam down to investigate, holding my breath. It was a hole. I swam in and everything was so bright and beautiful… like a room of crystal lights.
I was running out of air, so I turned back but I couldn't find where I came from. I felt myself get weaker as I felt the oxygen leave my lungs. It got harder and harder to go up getting. I was getting closer and closer to the bottom. I don’t usually get scared but it was different.I WAS scared. Not of dying…. Of not living.

Then it was over.
I had an out of body thing and I saw myself. All I remember was the look of fear… pure and utter fear on my face…

MY face.

Whenever I have to act scared I go back to that room of lights.

I have one for every emotion
I think that’s why I love acting. People can see my true emotion for everything and not know it's me behind the mask. By hiding behind the term "a good actor"
so ask you yourself... am i...

"a good actor?"

It will be different this time

i'm not going to let this be time number 80 when i get screwed over by a girl and let it slide by just swimming it off.
I'm taking a stand
i'm going to resolve this...


because friendships stand in the balance

Simple Admitance

I have learned to come to terms with the fact that i'm a jackass. But the thing is. I'm ok with it. Because a close friend helped me see that being a jackass doesn't make me a bad person, all it means is i can be better. According to this person men are naturally that way, but the guys who break out of it are the ones who you truly want to be around. So the fact that i'm a jackass doesn't mean i'm horrible or anything like that, i'm just normal. So i'm working on improving and maybe one day i will be the guy that everyone needs.

Don't think you can convince me that i'm not, because i've made up my mind.

Just Thinking

She never liked me,
She never wanted me,
I didn’t have a shot to begin with.
I’m done caring.

Don't take it personally,
I just need thinking time.
It isn't you or me,
I've just got lots on my mind.

Bah

I have just gotten back from my nephews house and he has a console hat has old school Atari games on it, and I have just reaized that there are games that I can be beat by a 6 year old at.

This is crap.