Saturday, January 29, 2005

What I REALLY learned from Thesp. Conf.

So this is what thespian conference TRULY taught me.

• Apparently I have a thing for red heads. And I can’t deny it.

• I miss Sara more than I thought I did.

• Staging an ask out is more fun than asking someone out ANY day.

• People of Mountain View are more easily fooled than I had ever expected.

• There is NO wrong time to go bowling.

• People who wear prom dresses to a dinner are weird.

• Prom dresses get pretty freaking skanky outside of happy valley

• People need to pay attention to their OWN love lives (me included)

• Anyone who doesn’t act is the nerd… we’re the normal ones (shifty eyes)

• Chris can jump further than anyone I have met in my life.

• Mountain View’s drama dept. in comparison… is a lot better than I thought it was.

• I miss Sara… still…

• No one in Utah really knows how I react to girls. (well maybe Scott)

• It’s weird that the only person who would laugh along with my phony girl escapades is Mike… and he’s a billion miles away

I miss Sara… still… a LOT…

Tuesday, January 25, 2005

It strikes me close

My family has lost 5 members due to the catastrophe in Asia. They weren't really close members so I didn't know them very well. But now I don't even have the chance. Now I realize that when people post songs on this peope don't usually read them (at least I don't) but when i heard this song I couldn't help but have tears come to my eyes. the Ironic thing is, this song came out like 5 years ago. but still appease me and take a look at it.

"The News"

A billion people died on the news tonight
But not so many cried at the terrible sight
Well mama said
It's just make believe
You can't believe everything you see
So baby close your eyes to the lullabies
On the news tonight

Who's the one to decide that it would be alright
To put the music behind the news tonight
Well mama said
You can't believe everything you hear
The diagetic world is so unclear
So baby close your ears
On the news tonight
On the news tonight

The unobtrusive tones on the news tonight
And mama said

Why don't the newscasters cry when they read about people who die?
At least they could be decent enough to put just a tear in their eyes
Mama said
It's just make believe
You cant believe everything you see
So baby close your eyes to the lullabies
On the news tonight

Sunday, January 16, 2005

Si Senior

Pedro Sanchez

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Saturday, January 15, 2005

Recent turn of events

So... it has been brought to my attention that I am a "very depressed individual" now, this completely caught me off guard, but so far, everyone i've spoken to about this seems to completely agree. So now I turn to you bloggers. You who have heard me rant on and on about days that have passed. Am I really a person who sees the glass as half empty? Because apparently I don't know.

Wednesday, January 12, 2005

I don't want to lose control

I've learned in the last couple of days that I am not willing ot accept change. I realize that everyone wants out of Utah as soon as possible, except for the canadians who can't wait to get in and take our place. But I just don't know. The one person who I want to hear this the most isn't ever going to read it because she has turned her back on this whole electronic world. But I for one am NOT ready to leave everything behind me. I mean sure, Things aren't perfect. but for once in my life, I'm happy with where I'm at... I guess I just don't want to lose that. I'm not afraid of change. I'm afraid that I can't control it.

I miss Mike and Sara... And Shamae, and Lance and Anthony, and Gaspar, and those countless other people who have left me stranded here in this desert wasteland. I'm not worried about growing up, in fact I embrace it. But I AM worried about loss. With Mike and Sara in Canada, and Jenesse perhaps going to Ireland for school, Brittany to S.U.U. and coutless other friends leaving. I'm afraid that when I get back from my mission i will find myself...




And abandoned.

Yeah I'm happy, but this crand new skin is wearing thin. And no one will ever know until it's gone. I heard a song today. and I miss the old days when we didn't have to worry about change or losing friends. I hate not being in control of my environment, I always have. And I've realized I have no say in an of this...

And it scares me to death.

Monday, January 10, 2005

This was.......... Unexpectd. I say it's wrong.

I AM 73% EMO!
73% EMO
Well.. I've made the cut! Now I'll go buy some promise rings and knit myself a sweater.

Friday, January 07, 2005

Sunday, January 02, 2005

Fetch... Yes...